An Awakened 2018 to You!
A Happy New Year to you All
I am back in the world of Reality after having taken a complete time out over the Christmas period. I spent much of my time in silence and contemplation, away from social media and noise. I allowed myself to just Be, drifting between worlds, and listening deeply to whatever arose from the depths of my soul. This is a long post, but it feels important to share, so please bear with me.
2017 has been an incredible year for me. I entered into the year with a deep fatigue. My adrenals were screaming, my body, mind and soul depressed and worn out. 2 years of living in fight or flight survival mode had completely worn me out and I knew something had to give. Soon. I sent a very clear signal. Things either need to change, drastically, or I want out. I sent them upstairs an ultimatum. Unfailingly, the Universe answered, and sent me a little “proposal” out of the blue. A summer job by the sea. It offered a break away from everything and would give me time to think, and just Be out in the open air, with plenty of sunshine. It did, however, mean I would have to let go of a secure job I had only just landed. I accepted the challenge and jumped, much against the advice of many. But my gut knew best and it was exactly what was needed. With sun on my skin and salt on my lips, much laughter and banter, the job gave my body and spirit exactly what was needed.
The Vitamin D boost and lightheartedness of living brought deep healing to my weary soul. Ironically enough, it also helped me overcome my shyness of raising my voice, as part of the job was shouting loudly across the harbour to proclaim when the next boat ride would leave. I was, for the first time, to be heard by all. That was my job. It addressed one of my deepest conditionings: that “children” (I) were only to be seen, and not to be heard - and it balanced my most blocked chakra ~ the Throat.
Every day, I asked myself: Who am I, what do I want? Why am I here? What is my mission? And I just let the answers arise from within, over the months, without judgment. One thing that was clear was that I am totally unemployable. Functioning within an over-regulated work environment, doing something I have no passion for, is soul destroying for me and makes me ill in a matter of months. And so I promised myself to create such a life for myself that I will never have to conform to this brain numbing 9-5 lifestyle which leaves you yearning for the weekends and days off only. It is such a complete waste of energy and precious time.
I addressed many of my shadows and brought them into the light to be embraced, loved and healed. I felt empowered and so much lighter because of it. I took full responsibility and owned my darkness. From that moment onwards, things began to shift deeply.
By October I had a very clear idea of how I wanted to carry on. I focused my full attention on my business and started sorting stuff out I had wanted to sort for ages. New ideas flowed. Courses were scheduled, a new website was created. My business began to flourish again and I was grateful and content and a wonderful run-up to Christmas unfolded.
Early December it became clear that it was important to find some time to listen deeper over the Xmas period. I allowed myself to relax and sink into a deep silence from the Winter Solstice onwards. It was a deeply transformative time. The one thing that came through so strongly was that although I love my crystals, and they will always be a part of me and my business, I feel I have so much more to give and share than just my knowledge of them. Whilst the crystals will always be part of the foundation, I do not wish to be defined by them only.
I have such a deep urge to help other people raise their vibration and to step out of the conditioned way of life, yet at the same time I am incredibly aware that there are so many out there already doing this and that perhaps I am just adding more “stuff” to so much “stuff” that is already out there. I questioned myself deeply whether this is just a part of my ego wanting to be recognised as a wayshower or inspirer, or whether this is something I am truly here to do. The guidance was as clear as a bell and simple as could be. If you have the urge, you are meant to do it. You would not be inspired to do so else. Your desire is part of your soul purpose wishing to express itself.
And before I knew it, the next thing that came through was the full title and topic of what book is to be written. I always thought it would be about crystals. But not so. My guides smiled and said: the world does not need another crystal book, there are so many brilliant books already written. But this, this is needed now. And I knew it was the truth. In one magical day, I had most of the structure of the book ready, and all I need now is the time to write it. I will reveal more when the time is right.
And with this last epiphany, I ended the year 2017. Stronger, calmer, clearer and more focused than I have ever been.
I am incredibly excited about 2018, but in a quiet, stable, knowing way. I know this will be a year of amazing transformation and upliftment for many. Not without challenges, but we are certainly moving out of the energy of wading through molasses. 2017 to me was like being in a vortex of timelessness, where we were given the opportunity to have a good old play with the new energies that are now available to us. Even though the numerological energy was that of a year 1, to me it felt like the energy of a 0 and the true beginning of the new reality is now. The learning of 2017 was steep for many, but it helped us awaken to a much greater degree in record time. Now we have moved into a year 2 in the cycle, but which truly vibrates to the master number 11 and in my eyes, it couldn’t be any more perfect. With all the learning of 2017 we are now ready to become masters and true co-creators of our life.
If there is anything I wish for you in 2018, it is a(n even) deeper awakening. When we begin to understand the truth of our own power, life becomes a miracle. We overcome fear, worry and illusion, to find joy, peace and contentment. Love shines through all we do and a quiet bliss weaves its way into our very core, where profound healing takes place. We begin to live a true, authentic life and step into our soul purpose in full alignment with what is.
We waste so much time in our life worrying, regretting, and wasting our time not truly living in the now. When I decided to fully take control of my life this October, I made a list of do’s and don’ts for living a better, more balanced and richer life. I am sharing these with you today, hoping that they will bring you a valuable reminder for your own life too.
Take responsibility for your life. Stop blaming others, outside influences, your past, the planets, the weather. Own your own chaos and start to address your problems one by one. Begin with your home. You cannot function properly if your home is in a state of chaos, untidiness and filth. Then move on to bigger issues. Your relationships, your job, your finances. It is, quite simply, your choice.
Live in the Now. Stop worrying about the future or dwelling in the past. The only moment you can change is right here, right now.
Every now and then unplug yourself. Almost everything will function properly again once you disconnect it from the “mains” for a while, reboot it and then restart the programme. The same is valid for humans.
Spend at least 30 minutes a day in nature. Ground yourself. Walk barefoot on the earth if you can. Nature truly is our greatest healer.
Spend less time on Social Media and more time with those you love. Social Media scatters and fragments your energy enormously and a big part of why you are feeling frazzled all.the.time.
Don’t hang on to anger and resentment. Equally, don’t ignore them either. Anger is a valuable emotional reaction when we feel wronged and a clear signal that our boundaries need to be (re)established or (re)evaluated. Take time to be with your feelings, work your way through them and understand why you feel the way you do. The moment you understand, you will be able to let go, just like that.
Be kind to yourself and others. You never know what the other is going through.
Meditate. Often. Write in your journal, process the day.
It is ok to feel self-pity now and then, but don’t dwell there. Rather harness the energy to create a better future for yourself.
Be Grateful. For the good and the bad. They both have worthy lessons to teach.
Listen to the silence. It has much to say.
Cry when you need to cry. It will release the pressure and bring healing to the pain.
Let go of Pride and Prejudice.
Stop living your life according to the latest planetary alignments, horoscope, cosmic weather, list of recent ascension symptoms and general tarot readings. Whilst a good, personal energy, astrology or tarot reading can bring much clarity and insight, fully living your life according to what has been “foretold” is the best way to stop the magic from happening. One choice today will alter your path tomorrow. Ignore any sensationalist doom and gloom messages repeated ad nauseum. They are designed to lure the masses into a “need” by keeping you trapped in your misery so that you keep coming back for more.
Understand that NOTHING will cure you other than YOU. There is not a single crystal, healing modality, healer or guru who can miraculously fix you. The only thing they can do is align you with the frequency of the healing you need to find within yourself. You have to do the work. You will have to do the inner work. Nobody can do it for you.
Own your addictions. Owning them is the beginning to curing them. Whether sugar, drugs, alcohol, food, sex, OCD... the list is endless. Own it. Then watch the transformation happen. It may not be overnight, but you will take control more and more until one day... you are free.
Deep Healing takes time. Be patient and and gentle with yourself. Trust that you will get there.
You have all the answers within. Seek advice with those you trust but listen to the wisdom of your soul.
Trust your gut. It knows more than your mind.
Let go of the need to be right or defend yourself. Truth will eventually out and people will respect you for it even more.
Your body is your temple. Learn to love it, just the way it is. The more you love it, the better you will treat it and the more it will love you back and transform into the way you would love it to be.
There is no such thing as coincidence. Everything has a meaning.
Opinion is the lowest form of knowledge.
Stop procrastinating and evading unpleasant situations. The sooner you grab the proverbial bull by the horns, the sooner the problem will go away.
Nothing will ever truly go away until we have learnt the lesson fully. If you find yourself in a repeat groundhog- day pattern, ask yourself what you are not wanting to see. See it.
Know that it is ok to let go. Step away from people and situations which you have outgrown. Move on. It is fine and the way it is meant to be. It is all part of your and their growth.
Self-care and self-nurture is vital. Allow yourself to rest. You cannot pour from an empty cup.
Understand the power of your thoughts. Thought creates and manifests energy. You can invest that power in negativity or positivity. The choice is yours.
Know that there will be days that you will feel out of sorts, emotional and overwhelmed. I still have them regularly and that is ok. Surrender to the feeling, be with it and try to find the reason. Sometimes you will, sometimes you won’t. And that is fine. Tomorrow is another day and this too, shall pass.
If you are having a super unmotivated day, still try and do one productive thing, preferably something you love.
Create order, structure and a certain routine in your day. Begin with making your bed. Schedule your day. Make a to-do list if you find it hard to keep to your schedule and get to the end of the day having achieved all your goals. You will be surprised how good it feels to tick all your to-do’s off the list as the day goes by.
Equally, make time to be “free” for a while each day.
Did I mention meditate?
Stop getting involved in drama. Be discerning in what you read, listen to and believe. Limit your time on TV / Radio / Social Media networks that proclaim the latest doom and gloom news. Stop sharing sensationalist news, be it on terror, horrendous crashes, personal tragedy. It only spreads more angst and enforces control of the masses. Better even ditch TV and Radio altogether.
Your TV probably has over 500 channels. If you find yourself brainlessly flicking through them, remember that there is an off button.
Read lots of books to expand your knowledge and horizons. If you find this difficult because of time pressures, listen to audio-books instead. Listen to them when commuting, ironing, doing your chores. I have “read” through stacks of books in the last 3 months by using audible and it has been life-changing.
Trust. The Universe has your back.
Travel as much as you can. It will bring many an unexpected gift.
Remember that fear is an illusion. Unless in a real, life-threatening situation, most of what we imagine could happen, never happens.
Tell those you love that you love them.
Make every day count.
You cannot change others. Either accept them as they are or choose to distance yourself.
Relationships change. Your marriage, your friendship, your loveship. They will all evolve and change, and that is good. You can either grow with them or stay frozen in stagnation. Your choice.
Communication is vital. Express your feelings. Lack of communication is one of the biggest reasons for disharmony. If you find it hard to speak your feelings, write them down and pass your message on that way. Explain if you are finding it hard to express your emotions verbally. It will be understood.
Every now and then, take a risk. Go on an adventure. It adds spice to life and expands your horizons.
Clean up after yourself.
Avoid gossip and gossip magazines. You have no idea how horrendous and destructive their energy is.
What others think about you is none of your business.
Equally, what others do is none of your business.
Change is good. Stop resisting it.
Be creative in whichever way you love. Write, draw, paint, crochet, make jewellery, build something. It doesn’t matter what it is. But being creative matters to your soul and happiness. Creativity is one of the greatest healers.
You have more strength, resilience and courage within you than you will ever know. You can do this.
Make love not war.
Move your body. Exercise gently for 30 minutes a day. A brisk walk and 15 minutes of gentle Yoga will work wonders.
Your family is your greatest teacher.
Have regular, nourishing meals. It creates order in our day and order in your body.
There is life after copy and paste messages. Stop brainlessly copying messages onto your status. This too is a form of control and stops you from engaging your own brain and creativity.
Be patient. Everything will come to you at the right time.
Keep dreaming. Your dreams are the vehicle to manifestation.
Think before you speak.
Treat everyone with respect.
Have fun! If you forgot how to do that, play with a child for a while.
If someone really gets under your skin and triggers you deeply, there is an important lesson to learn. Step back, take a breath, observe your reaction and then take considered action.
Set boundaries if you feel violated. It is ok to define your limits. It is not a sign of weakness but of strength.
Show your emotions. Not everybody is good at reading other people’s energy or body language.
Stop worrying about getting older. It is a privilege denied to many.
Don’t be too hard on yourself.
Stop being available 24/7. There really is no need to answer that phone/message/text/email immediately.
Dare to be vulnerable. Your integrity will earn you deep respect.
There is no such thing as failure. Even when you give up for a while, it is not failure. See it as a breakthrough. There WILL be a point where you will be ready to try again.
Be totally honest with yourself. It will set you free.
Never stop learning. The moment you stop learning, life will become dull and meaningless.
Nothing will ever be perfect. Just be the most imperfectly perfect you can be, because all is perfect as it is anyway. One of the great paradoxes of life.
Be aware of energy. Your energy, the energy of your words, your thoughts, the energy of others, of things. I wish I could show everyone the effect and impact of energy. If we would all be aware of it, this world would truly be a better place.
Stop complaining. It keeps you trapped in the energy and makes you a victim.
Never ever grow up. It ‘s a trap ;)
It is never too late to change anything.
Love is the answer. No matter what the question.
Be the change you wish to see.
Be . Authentically .You. Always.
I wish you all an epic, empowered journey through 2018. Embrace the New Year with optimism, courage and a good dose of self-awareness.
The sky truly is the limit, but only when we make the effort to delve through our shit. My guides gave me a wonderful metaphor for dealing with your own darkness. It is a bit like a compost heap. If you leave the pile untouched, it will just become a stinking, rotting mess. But if you stir and shift it regularly, air it, prod it, and turn it around, amazing transformation will happen. Only when infused with light and air will it turn into the highly prized gardener’s gold and become fertile ground for abundant growth.
No mud – no Lotus!
With all my heartfelt Love,